It all just hurts so much
I just feel like crying, screamin, falling into the floor and curling up into a ball,
Flashbacks all day...had to pull off the road this morning...too much...
not sleeping...sleeping equals nightmares..
Why? Why?
I feel so dirty...I feel like cheap plastic...a figure..
I can't be real...this can't be true...
but oh how it is...how true it is...
I can feel it...still today...i can feel them..smell them...hear themm
shhh dont tell..

If someone whispers in my ear...I freak out...
that voice..shhh...be quiet..don't struggle...
it's a game...don't you like playing games...
this is one of my favoirte games to play...
come play with me....
sick twisted bastard.....

and the girl...
making me and the other girl take off our clothes..
touching..hitting...calling me names...
dirty little *****...dirty little *****...
don't tell...you'll get in trouble...noone will believe you...
laughing the whole time...
make noises for me...your supposed to make noises you dirty little *****..
shh don't tell
sick twisted monster

Tell me why? Why does this happen? Why did noone protect me?
Why do I have to live with these memories for a lifetime?
Why WHY WHY????????????????