Yes it simmers daily, I had to talk myself down today because I was so angry and had a headache. I asked myself what was the alternative to the anger because I have been in that state for two months now... I guess I am just angry at myself, and everyone else. I think I just hate my life and am jealous of the life that others are leading that I used to have.

I want to be free, I want to be able to go outside without all of the paranoia and angst. I want to be able to go to my daughters events without caring about other people. I want to be there for her and show her love but have to work at it when I remember it... It isn't easy... I don't know what happened, well I know what happened, but I never used to be like this and it saddens me...

I'm happy that you are able to control your anger... I am working on it. I noticed jogging was helping, but I haven't done that in two weeks until today... It helped to get out in the fresh air and listen to music and just be...

TJ