there might be more than the verbal stuff. the brain often blocks out things that are too rough for the soul. they will come back later, though. ok, this probably creeps you out. i'm sorry if i'm doing that. i'm not saying this is exactly the case - but it was for me.
like orange blossom said - a therapy is a good aid in diving into this kinda stuff.
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