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(((((silversparrow)))))
I hear you, every word. I know you tell the truth. Sad and horrible that you and I lived 4500 miles away from each other and know the exact same stories - feel the same shame and pain and fear and anger and loss and sadness inside.
They said it was our fault, that we made them do it, we wanted it somehow. Lies, Lies, Lies and more lies. We never wanted or asked for it - although come to think of it I did with some of them because they trained me to accept it and I began to want it because I needed human touch so badly. No matter what they trained me to do or I learned to like, I am not the perpetrator, the sick predator. I was their prey, but NOT ANYMORE.
I am going on without them and I never hurt a child like they did. I'm learning to stop hurting myself like they hurt me. I am not taking the anger out on myself, I deserve a life of goodness, kindness and truth. I survived and now I am healing and I will get beyond this. There is life after abuse.
I am living it; it's worth the work and suffering to get there.
I care, Silver, don't give up. Get well and shame the devil.
leslie and the pixies
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  HEALING HAPPENS
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