I think I may have post traumatic stress disorder from the verbal abuse that I suffered from my Mom. She continues to do it to me to this day. Everytime I have to be around her I get anxious and defensive worrying about what she will say or do next. All day I worry that my house isn't clean enough for her or that I'm not doing what I should to take care of my kids right. Her cynical voices rings in my ears all day. How do I cope with this.? How do I live for me instead of this woman who seems to control me?