(((chaotic)))

i'm sorry about your parents & that you're struggling with your marriage

i've realized that it is my mom's choice whether she will divorce him or not. what i say does not seem to matter - maybe.... deep down she loves him - or would feel responsible if he hurt himself - and doesn't want that. the whole village is trying to get dad to stop drinking - even our long-term family friends (who helped my parents when they moved here, over 20 years ago) refused to come to his birthday party because he is drinking.

he's as stubborn as they come. and apparently in a lot of pain, too, but is too ashamed to speak up, has to be all "manly". (he was born in 1943, and there is a huge gap of generations between us)

ahhh. there's a song quote that goes, it's impossible for two people to need the same thing. i hope it isn't true.

i hope you can be good to yourself (((chaotic))).


twilight