I went and did it again, last nite. I haven't cut for so long, years in fact. However, T has been bringing out lots of memories and I'm not entirely sure I want to remember or to feel this way again. Cut myself 12 times. I don't want to go back down this road, so why did I do it!! I have been giving the forums a miss recently, had too much to deal with irl. I didn't know where else to go or who to tell. I can't tell my T, so please, please don't tell me to do that.

I feel so shi77y tonite. Everyting is crap. Thinking I might not bother with work 2morro... let them all down there and stay at home in bed alseep.