I am at a point in my life where my being realistic and honest about myself is losing friends. I am remembering why I stopped being real with people. On the flip side (isn't there always a flip side?), I just joined a new suppot group (linked closely with AA) and have been told that "they will take me at face value" and now I am not sure what that means -other than they think i'm a user too...which I'm not... sooooo maybe they are feeling duped by me?
Sooo... it all comes back to the same end - i'm crazy, i'm isolating, i hate myself, i believe i should isolate so ppl don't have to deal with my sorry ***, and if i hole up and cancel all my apnts since no one gives a rip anyway.... it will all be ok.