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(((((((((((((Junerain))))))))))))))),
Thank you for letting me know how much the visualization of my life touched you. I truely see my life in one continual path going from beginning to end.....all the hills, valleys, streams & beautiful tree lined lakes, along with the rock slides & fallen trees that block my path at times, or cause me to take a detour on the path I'm on. Usually when that happens, there is some wonderful reason that I am not aware of at the time it happens & sometimes I never do know a reason except that I may just need a different view of my path that is better than the one I had been seeing.
Then again, sometimes I am actually in the middle of the rock slide or falling tree when it happens. Again, I have always found there is usually a good reason why something happens even though I may not understand it at the time Even if I am hurt by it, it is usually for a reason unknown to me at the time & may stay unknown for the whole way through my life. Usually at some deeper level I am aware that it was for a good reason not just to harm me. Sometimes it brings someone into my path that I never would have known otherwise & somewhere down the path while we are walking together, we realize the importance of what happened.
I see my life as a path to a destination. but not only does it have paths that travel through scenery & obsticals, but the path also has it's seasons that are traveled through. The path starts in Spring (birth) where new life is beginning, buds fresh & clean, bulbs pushing their stems out from the nothingness. After moving here to Kentucky where I truely observed real seasons, I have an even better picture of this than I ever did when living in California (yet I was still aware of it there). Through the spring there is continual new life, new trees coming into bloom each week, new flowers coming out every day. It seems that each day there is a new life & new flower, a new part of life to experience that just wasn't there the day before. Everything is fresh just as it is when we are children, seeing new things everyday & being amazed at everything around us as it's all NEW. Fresh just as we are at the start of our backpack with energy in every step.
From Spring, we hike into the Summer of our lives, it's a time when we are working hard at getting farther along our path. A time when nothing seems outstanding, things just are. Sometimes this period is very hot, dry, & not always plesant. The days are longer & it gives us more time to put into traveling on our path & seeing & doing more things along the way. Also, some of the seeds that were planted in the spring time of our life start to grow. The fruit on the trees & the gardens planted along the way start to produce nurishment for us to keep us healthy as we continue along our path.
As we continue to travel along our path, we come to the fall. The time when we harvest the things that have been growing throughout the spring & summer of our lives. This is when we get a chance to see everything come together. This is also the time when if we had chosen to end the hike earlyer than we were supposed to, we would never see this wonderful part of our lives. This is truly the reality of my life. I am seeing things come together at this point. I am seeing things that I never would have imagined would have ever been a part of my life & wouldn't have been if I had given up my journey when I had previously wanted to years ago. Traveling farther down the path & over the ridges & down the cliffs, up the rivers & over the glaciers, I can honestly say that I have come to the most beautiful pasture that I never imagined could have existed in my life. Surrounded with trees & leaves changing into the most beautiful warm colours of fall. A sight that none of my dreams or imagination ever were able to produce. Without traveling the route I took, I never would have made it to this pasture as there was no other route that would have taken me here with all the pains & hurt, with all the beautiful experiences & joys. It has taken everything that has been part of my life to this point that has brought me to where I am. So accepting everything along the way as being necessary (even though no one should ever have to have to go through those experiences in their lives) to get me to where I am today is what I look at & am thankful for.
Obviously, winter is still yet to come. I am blessed that I made it to where I am & know that even the winter with it's beautiful snow & the chill in the air has it's own beauty & excitement surrounding it. It is a time when the weather gets in the way of things we may really want to do in our lives, but we have to go on with nature in control. A time to let go of the control we want to have, sit back & focus & appreciate the wonderful things we have been provided in our lives rather than dwell on the bad as life is full of both. We need to focus on the good rather than the bad....for what we focus on is our choice.
I know I constantly have stressful situations tripping me up & taking me on detours still, but as long as I keep my focus on the good & beautiful things in my life, I can keep from loosing sight of my destination & the goals that I really know are mine in this life.
I actually don't focus on this imagry, but when looking at my life, this is how I find that I am living it rather than just as imagry.
Debbie
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Leo's favorite place was in the passenger seat of my truck. We went everywhere together like this.
Leo my soulmate will live in my heart FOREVER Nov 1, 2002 - Dec 16, 2018
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