I am so touched, that so many people replied, this was, this is so hard for me..
I cried when I wrote this and cried harder when I read all the replys,
I've had these memories buried for so long....so so long...
To have all the memories be brought forth..it hurts...and the flashbacks...and everything....
Thank you everyone, I'm sorry we have all had to go through this
(((((((((((Everyone))))))))))