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I_WMD · Oct 03, 2008, 12:14 AM

..... believe I am posting here .....

I have chaired N A meetings >> and 12 step program I most like for those that should ask for forgiveness from those they hurt or let down ...

But in reality >>. It is up to the peep that feels they need to except the fact they have >> what ???? Limited controll ?

Please Do not take this wrong :

We all know the reason we decide most the time is because we are about to lose something or someone >>.

That is not exactly the best motivation >> for any ol' excuse will do !!
The re-blame game .
I tried but ..... Or the >> If you would be patient with me >> then .... or even the straight out >> So I am an addict and / or >> have addictive personality disorder .

Now ya say >> I go to work everyday >> I have friends and they enjoy my company as I do theirs >. bottom line it ...I am a functioning alcoholic / substance abuser ,.

But that is only because you are going to work so you have a roof over your head and your addiction of choice >> food and bills paid .. But what if ?

You begin to question >> " Why do I do this " ?

So Ya look back to FAMILY History ?

Now the blame game gives ya re-enforcement ,

And to tell yourself I am OK > And My Friends seem to be ok { those that you are around that drink / or use illicit drugs } are your they do it >> so I quess I can too .

At this point ya begin to wonder >>what if ?? again >> all the excuses make sense >> and to stop is like >> not a problem >> so I see >> why take away the one thing I do >>>> That is harmless and only hurts me >> If that be the truth ...

If to look at ourselves and feel we only doing it for >> As we need to ?

Then you would not wonder why it is in the forefront of your thoughts .

What I have learned is ....... To stop any addiction is a personal choice for the best reason that motivates best >> for each individual .

Cannot Believe I posted in this Forum >>..

For I am an addict .>> addictions are not so easily defined though .

WMD.