No..not a man...only a monster Steppalee could create such illusions.

I can understand your need to know why,,it is a question that plagues victims eternally. Seldom do we get a real answer,,in most cases the monster doesn't know.

So...

If you can,,find a way to know that it had nothing to do with you,,,the real you,,the you before the monster. That you is still here. That you is not dirty,,not less than,,not invisable.

That you is wonderfull,,beautifull and deserving of all good things that this life has to give...

You fell in front of a monster and he took advantage of the weak and innocent. It was wrong and it was bad. What will make it worse is if that terrrible moment defines you forever.

It was not you,,,it was him and let the blackness of that moment define him..not you.

With deepest care,

Lenny