(((((((((((multipixies, fuzzie)))))))))))
Thanks... called md like i am sposta and totally messed up my message. said this is stupid, same thing different day, that don't want to have to call any more cuz it's pointless and i go between chaos/crisis and apathy and i am in crisis mode and... i couldn't remember anything else. you're right - i was angry... but it didn't translate. i couldn't say that i hate how no one take my body complaints seriously because it is always just "emotional" and that i don't want to have to be seen any more since it is so pointless.
After that an alter of mine processed some heavy stuff (in Abuse forum) and then i felt calm only after all that. @_@ i hate this journey.