Hi guys. I had emdr yesterday and I went over something I never had ever talked about. The traumatic exam in the er after the rape. It was a really bad experience and it added to the nights trauma. I heard from my T that they have new procedures for rape exams on kids because of the truamatic experience it had been for the kids in the past. To late for me but not to late for other kids. I went though periods of having my whol body numb today and pain. I have a new dr sorta new and I have an appt today and i will ask for pain pills but not be honest of why I need them, I know its bad but I have learned. My reg T called and she wants me to wrap myself in a blanket make some soup and take childrens tyleonol and have hot water bottles. I laughed cus I have an image to keep but really when she said that she wishes she was here to do that for me It made the nine year old gut feel a little better. Like she was heard and comforted and loved. I know it sounds retarded and stuff but I am telling you this truama stuff just is almost unbearable and the weirdest things help. So i am probably going to get pain pills and see that they do not in fact help and i can concentrate my energy else where. But my T's are so awesome a little goofy and stuff but they try so hard and stuff. They know I have an image to keep and they understand when I say there ideas are stupid because usually that means that a good idea.