im sure it comes as no surprise to you Stepp that it is up to you to make this choice.. you and only you can control this addiction.. if you do decide to control it you will have lots of support and help.. you also know what will happen if you do not control it... praying that you will have the required strength to defeat the monster.. his needs are not so different than your own and he is telling you that if you walk his path all things good will come your way.. this is only in your mind that this goodness he speaks of can happen.. in reality you can have all the liar is telling you that you can have and you can have it all for real, not a dream... you can have it by choosing health... best hopes for you always...