I'm just so scared... I can't see an end to any of this at all.
He doesn't know mainly because I don't know how to tell people, scared to tell people. But, also because I want him to care once in a while... he knows I'm a lot lot more depressed than usual, but not once has he asked why... infact he's talked to me less... and I'm taking that hard because I love him so much and we've always been there for each other. Also because he's my only friend IRL. He's the only person I can talk to.