I don't like the "h" word. Thinking more about it, I don't really "h" myself. I just feel so alone, I have my mother with me and I keep asking her to spend time with me and she puts it off each time I feel no one cares for me and feel "h"ed. Haven't worked in two weeks, haven't seen my T for two weeks, things are taking over me. Suppose to get a phone call about an aspergers program to help me, and she hasn't called me back for 1.5 weeks, each day the feelings get stronger, until I can see my T. She makes me feel better, but she is sick this week so she cancelled on me. Just so !