I don't know if i should post this here or in the pharmeceutical forum so I guess I'll cross post this. Sorry if that's not allowed or bothers anyone...

I haven't been able to stop thinking about this past week's session. My counselor talked a little about the shrink I'm meeting this week. I guess to prep me for the initial meeting. She told me that she was talking to him (i signed a release for her to do so) and that she told him that she thought my dx was no longer depression but some form or another of bipolar. My family doc also told me about a year ago that he thinks my dx is bipolar too, not just unipolar depression anymore.

Apparently though, the shrink (whom i have yet to even meet), told the counselor that it was just depression because I took anti depressants and they worked in the past.

I did take anti depressants for 6 yrs without any problems. However, when i changed jobs, I couldn't afford them anymore and stopped taking them for 6-9 months. That was a big mistake on my part, lesson learned. My doc was able to get me samples of the same meds I used to take, the same dosage, same pharmaceutical company, same EVERYTHING but they messed me up. I couldn't eat, sleep, or do anything really for 3 days and nights. That was a year ago. We've been playing with anti depressants ever since then and we have yet to find any that I can tolerate.

The counselor also said something about the shrink possibly wanting to give me the same meds I was once on but in a higher dosage. If the lowest dosage had me flying and unable to function at all, how will an even higher dosage be managable?

How can a shrink say things like that without even having met me yet? I guess I should maybe let the counselor know that hearing stuff like that gets me all worked up and worried. But really...is that something that normally happens?