My counselor told me that she was talking to the shrink (i signed a release for her to do so) and that she told him that she thought my dx was no longer depression but some form or another of bipolar. My family doc also told me about a year ago that he thinks my dx is bipolar too, not just unipolar depression anymore.

Apparently though, the shrink (whom i have yet to even meet), told the counselor that it was just unipolar depression because I took anti depressants and they worked in the past.

I did take anti depressants for 6 yrs without any problems. However, when i changed jobs, I couldn't afford them anymore and stopped taking them for 6-9 months. That was a big mistake on my part, lesson learned. My doc was able to get me samples of the same meds I used to take(Effexor) but they messed me up. And it was the lowest dose (37.5 mg). I couldn't eat, sleep, or do anything really for 3 days and nights. That was a year ago. We've been playing with anti depressants ever since then and we have yet to find any that work and/or I can tolerate.

The counselor also said something about the shrink possibly wanting to give me the same meds I was once on but in a higher dosage. If the lowest dosage had me flying and unable to function at all, how will an even higher dosage be managable?

Maybe I didn't get the entire story from the counselor for whatever reason. But, I'm scared of the shrink being wrong and the doc and counselor being right about the dx. And if the shrink just prescribes a higher dosage of anti depressants on their own (and he's wrong about the unipolar depression dx), then what's going to happen? This just doesn't seem right to me and i'm getting scared...