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Originally Posted by Jifiner
I too found that all my meds made me worse. I have been on and off so many meds over the past 16 years. I was on as many as 9 pills a day at one time. I have been med free for almost 3 years and most of the time I am fine. I still occasionally have manic/depressive episodes, but I usually snap out of them quickly. The worst I got was being on effexor (which is not a drug for bipolar - see the FDA website) which landed me in the hospital for suicidal thoughts. I spent 4 days in the hospital and I NEVER want to repeat that. I cannot find a Dr. that cares anything about me as a person. In fact, after I ended up in the hospital, I went to my Dr. for about 3-4 more months and then just stopped. Not once, did the office even call to see if I was ok or even alive.
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I know what you mean. I was on Effexor XR and Topamax and I was in the hospital twice--and, of course, they increased the meds during my first stay (and tried to add klonopin, but I refused it; even 0.25mg once a day made me too loopy.) My impulsivity--something I have a LOT of issues with--was markedly increased ESPECIALLY if I was going through withdrawal, if I forgot to refill a prescription or something. Just... not a med I'd ever take again.
And I also know what you mean about the Drs. office not caring. I saw the same Dr. for quite a while, through intensive outpatient therapy (in the hospital 8 hrs. a day, sleep at home) and through 2 inpatient stays. When I finally stopped going (I changed employers and lost insurance for a while) I never got any sort of follow up... that really, really sucks. Way to make patients with lagging self-esteem feel even better about themselves, hey?
