last year ago I was taking more geodon then was prescribed for hypomania and told my tdoc about it...she insisted that I tell my pdoc, I did not want to for fear that she would change my meds or hospitalize me...She said either you tell her or I will.
I stopped seeing her shortly after that.
Now I hold back from my pdoc, I don't tell her of my hypomanias, don't want to change my meds so I put on my "normal" face for her seeing her once every 4 months. I am bipolar 1.
I stopped taking ambien in May and tried to sleep "normally", well was hypomanic most of the summer, so when I saw her asked to stop the ambien and start klonipin she agreed, she did not know that I had already stopped the ambien.
I know that I am a bad patient, I have to be able to figure things out for myself....I have to live this life and have it make sense, I don't want to be drugged, I have felt more like me this past summer...which is what I want.
Just have to keep the hypomania at bay.
bizi