I'm only going to make a few comments.

1. First, I'm really sorry that some/all of you had a rough day/going through a rough time right now and I will keep y'all in my thoughts and prayers. I'm sorry for what y'all are having to deal with, some of which I guess is me. PM me if you want further contact from me and I'll continue to support you.

2. For those of you who have recognized the changes I've already made, THANK YOU. That means a LOT to me that you've noticed because you are in the minority.

3. Some of you have stated things as 'facts'. They're not. I went back and reviewed things in that thread. (ie: timelines)

4. I'm NOT going to justify my feelings to any of you. Feelings aren't right or wrong. They just are. Yours and mine. We're all entitled to them.

5. Short of a few people who have responded in this thread, some of you JUST DON'T GET IT!!!! You just don't REALLY read my words. You think you do but you read into them what you want and not what they're actually saying. Maybe some objectivity might help. But I think most of you are beyond anything to do with me anymore. Fine, I can't change what anybody thinks about me. Y'all are going to think whatever you want to think, regardless of what I say.

I'm not going to address any specific things any of you said, although I could very easily. To be honest I'm just sick of it and I know some/most of you are too.

THIS ISN'T A SELF-ESTEEM FORUM, IT'S A BATTLEFIELD.

And I'm not the only one who feels this way. I've received PMs from people who are AFRAID to post in this forum because of all the GANGING UP and fighting that takes place. Not my words, theirs.

Maybe some people need to step back and look at the big picture and really examine what is actually going on in this forum before there is another casualty. How many have there been now? Maybe you're going to justify each of them away.

As much as I need to work on my self-esteem, I think it is far healthier for me to do it off of this forum.

For those of you who still want/need to talk with me, you can PM me. I'm outta here. I have to do this for my own self-preservation.

I'm sorry for those of you who are hurt by my words. I've made some good friends on this site and I don't want to lose them. If however, you are one of those people who I consider to be a friend and my actions now change your mind about being friends with me, well, I'm going to be the loser to lose such a wonderful friend. I hope my friends will still be with me. Time will tell. You don't have to agree with me to be my friend.

And one last thing, I'm NOT furious. I'm HURT!!! There is a difference. A BIG DIFFERENCE!!! Like I said, I could counteract all of your comments but I'm choosing not too. I don't think some of you really care anymore anyway.

And finally, I wish you all good luck with improving your self-esteem, SERIOUSLY!!! That is not a sarcastic comment.

Thanks for the benefits I've received up to this point but this forum is waaaaaaaaay too triggering for me to stay. I need a peaceful environment in which to learn, not a minefield. I'm sure some of you will be happy about my departure because you've already written me off anyway. For those who won't be, I'm sorry. I just can't do this anymore. I hope to receive PMs from those that still consider me a friend to let me know. I'll be dissapointed to not get them but I guess I only have myself to blame for that.

So again, to everyone Good Luck!!! I wish y'all well.