I don't know what to do

I've lost my boyfriend, I've lost my family... I'm alone.
I don't know what to do... I made the mistake of saying what I felt about my dad to my mum... I said that I thought what he was doing is emotional abuse. I knew I shoukd't have, I knew I shouldn't my mum pracically said that I brought it on nyself and if I hated him so much I should be glad she's taking him away for a 'little holiday' the weekend after next.

So now I've not only lost my boyfriend, but my mam too (the two peopple left that I had in my life that loved me even just a tiny bit)

I don't know what to do! What have I done to deserve this, to feel this way, to be unloved and unwanted. I really don't want to be alive anymore, I can't cope (I don't think I'll ever k**l myself, I haven't the stomach, nomatter how awful I feel.)
Right now I can hear my dad yelling downstairs so it won't be long till someone has a go at me for crying and being hurt... I haven't even done anything wrong...
maybe I have... maybe me being alive is enough for me to be like this!