(((girlfriend)))))) please dont give up hope though this is a very trying time for you... if you are able give yourself all the love you've always wanted, even if only for a moment.. you are worth all that love and more... times are hard now but they can get better... let yourself feel all that you feel (at least as much as you can handle) .. sorry of its a bad time for advice but you are not completely alone ever... i understand why that is a fear tho... believe you can make it, believe everyone matters (including you) and giv yourself time to walk through this situation with loving care.. begin with love and you can end there too... first start with loving you... all is not lost, give yourself a fighting chance... there is nothing wrong with you that i can see except having a bit of time satisfying some needs... i hear you wanting love.... own a healthy share for yourself and share that with others... healthy others will return your healthy share.... sounds simple right? dont give up, ok?