My heart is broken. I feel so alone. I don't even know if anybody likes me anymore. I'm a total screw-up. God, it's really hitting me hard this time. Middle of the night....alone...isolated....not knowing what further heartbreak the morning light will bring .... I don't even want to know . .... I know it's not going to be good....it never is....I'm so self-destructive....my heart feels heavy and quiet....but yet the tears are streaming....I'm my own worst enemy....I bring it on myself....I should never voice my feelings.....f'd up feelings....they always get me into trouble.....rejection follows.....inevitable rejection....I can't handle the rejection....it's all my f'ing fault!!! DAMN F'ING FEELINGS!!!