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Originally Posted by Rhombus
I feel like I'm typing with hands that don't belong to me. I feel like the walls of my room keep getting closer than further away. I feel like my mind is floating just above my body and I feel dead. I know this isn't real, but I can't stop the feeling I'm an actor in a movie, like none of this is real. I slammed my body against the wall an hour ago to make sure I really do have a body I control. I feel like I'm in a glass box, like everyone is very far away from me - I'm mentally detached but they also feel physically far away from me. I get the sense people are made of cardboard - they walk past me and I hear them, but they feel "flat". The whole world feels flat and light, like I could just push away all the walls of my room. People talking sounds weird, I understand what they're saying but it has no value, no meaning. I want to scream, but I feel like if I did no one could hear me, though I'm aware they would. I feel like I want to get out of my skin, like it's not me.
Sorry, I needed to express this to someone  |
Well, I'm on the website trying to find somebody that understands me AND yep... I think you are doing the same thing... Our plights are a little different but I can relate to some of the stuff... It's hard to put yourself down on the page without something "is going to be missing" type of problem... Like I'll leave something out or they'll get it wrong.... This is a start of an attempt to talk with someone. Hopefully , not the end...But Briefly... Sometimes I do scream... I wish I never did it... Seems it gets worse after you do it...If people notice you they won't notice what you want... only that you are "strange."
Just aside... Could this particular multiple personality be someone who has recently died and might be in a box?
My mother died recently and she was the major cause of abuse in my life ...Never let up, NEVER and after her death I feel that I have turned into her... LAST THING I WANTED TO DO OR BE...I'm a little psychic and now she has mean things to say to me.... Some combination... psychic and DID....