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they are me and i am them. we are each other's family.
these parts of my own mind somehow defended my sanity against horrors my child's mind and emotions could neither comprehend nor bear.
i finally understand that even though some of them did things that were not good for me or truly acceptable in behavior did it to "help" me to the best of their ability.
i finally grew to appreciate and applaud them. i finally saw that the more i rejected them and treated then meanly that i was doing what my mother used to call "cutting off my nose to spite my face" - doing something that was supremely unhelpful.
these days my real enemy is the recurring desire to go back into denial of my alters and my dissociation. doing that works against the healing process i am pursuing with my system of "pixies". i now devoutly desire to bring love into my sytem of alters and find a way for us to come out of the nightmare of my past and find a future for us all. i seem to be doing that by going 3 stops forward and 2 steps back sometimes, though sometimes i only go 1 step back.
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  HEALING HAPPENS
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