hi jessica

parents are important people in our lives... our relationships with them very likely affect us the entirety of our lifetimes, aware or not... you are concerned because you take this connection to them seriously, assigning it value, and you fear there may have been some damage to the bond.. i think that is unlikely but it is good you are aware it needs some maintenance.. its good you recognize you have some power to heal what you feel may have been damaged in some way...

another part of you which you fear has become damaged is the intact future of yourself being grounded and enjoying your life... that has not been damaged either...

because of your current awareness that matters need attention you have caught yourself in time and can get matters back to center for yourself...

listen to loving and caring messages now whether they come from parents, friends, relatives, strangers... now is a time of caring, not harming (self or others)

take advice now, listen to good health ideas... sounds like a good therapist is what you need now because your level of sadness is deep and the geography of your emotions hits close to home... very valuable relationships are involved... now is a time you need anchors.... listen to basic truths... love heals, good health helps..... best to you always