you still have time to choose health Griffe.. start by shaking off the load of guilt for not feeling well... that will help some... you might feel bad about 'dragging others down' .. dragging yourself down further isnt helping... take the hands of help offered you... if you stay on the down arc i will guarantee you a life of misery.... you have the power to change it... be your own best friend awhile, then offer your support to others.... they need a friend also..