(((katielee)))
I'm glad that it all worked out for your bf.
So, now, how did it work out for YOU?
You were worried in your last thread about him not finding a job, and how you could help him. Now that that one worry is behind you, did you give yourself a chance to feel relieved? Have some fun?
You are so darn hard on yourself. I've edited your post to show the judgements....
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Originally Posted by katielee102
i am back to my paranoid thinking, worrying. ...I should be happy ...I know how much his schedule was driving him insane...my paranoid thoughts come out... im sure there will be cute girls, ..i know me and ill start asking stupid questions ...i know he is very relived. ... i dont know what is going on. I do know he is going on.
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It is ok for you to be sad, when your bf is happy. Just like it is ok for him to be upset while you are feeling good.
You seem to be trying so hard to do the 'right' thing, that if there is one little slip -- you come down hard on yourself. You label yourself as paranoid, you know you'll ask stupid questions...
I just want to hug you and say...stop trying so hard! Be kind to yourself.
Change can be hard to deal with, and that is ok. That is human.
Trust yourself, and your own ability to cope. And, most importantly, be kind and forgiving of yourself. You are obviously a warm and caring person, and you deserve to be treated with compassion...not put down.
Forgive the ramble, and please forgive me if I am being too blunt. I see so much of my younger self in your words, that I want to reach out.
Many hugs!
