(both of them)

I'm sorry you're not feeling great... and your dreams don't sound very nice at all. Dreams rarely mean that what happens in your dream will happen. But, the fact that you're so down can be reflected in your dreams... I got told (so I'm not saying take my word for it) that at night your mind goes over everything, it reflects on the feelings we've felt, memories.

I'm glad you found the courage to phone the help-line and I hope you'll really consider taking there advise... they've been trained for this sort of thing, so they know when to advise people to seek help or not. Take that care.. you deserve to be happy and they can listen to you.
I wish you all the best...
take care,
Molly