They all deserve better. I cause nothing but pain, sadness and anger. I can't do anything right. My kids? They deserve a good father, not me, they deserve so much better. I failed with Vlad. I'm failing them.

I shouldn't even be here. Everyone would be happier if I wasn't. Friends? Half the people who say we're friends wouldn't care if I was gone. I wouldn't be missed. People would see how much better they are with me gone.

I want my kids to have a good life and I think I realize that I'm holding everyone back because I'm just a stupid idiot who shouldn't be here I know what the noble thing for me to do would be and I'd get in trouble for saying it here but I hurt too much and the world would be better off