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Oct 05, 2008, 09:41 PM
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Member Since: Jan 2006
Location: Rochester, NY
Posts: 97
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"junerain" or shall I say, FRIEND,
It sounds like you have been through a lot and that the past has caused you a lot of pain. We all have demonds in our closet, some looking uglier than others. However, it also sounds like you are doing much better at the present time and I think it's important to live for RIGHT NOW.
I have recently been going through some issues where I have been given an opportunity to have something special in my future but my past has haunted me to the point where I fear it may be holding me back so I think I understand some of what you are saying.
Art therapy?? Cool I know people with mental illness,ect who have tried music therapy and it had a positive effect. You should look into that.
Your FRIEND :::::::wink wink::::::::
Lia
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Originally Posted by Junerain
My past has such power over my emotions, bad, empty memories....I'm always second guessing myself, is this the same me?
I don't like my past of loneliness and emptiness yet hey, that WAS WHO I WAS THEN.
I feel like living a happier, more social life is denying that part of me I was for so long, dismal as that girl was.
I'm trying to picture that younger girl I was, clinging to ways to fill my life without friends, trying to find meaning when life seemed, in short, to have absolutely no meaning at all...I try to picture her, then giving her over to a guardian angel, who lets her go into a world where she is more suited..
...then the me as I am now comes out and starts living, finding meaning effortlessly in everything..
but I do believe I need something more visual to discard these bored and anger turned inward memories..
perhaps I need an art therapist? Any websites about art therapy ( something low cost I can research on my own)
Or how do people visually help themselves, how do we become products of our past.......and not prisoners of our past.......
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