I smoke weed everyday, partially because its helps to minimize my chronic stomach pain & partially just so I can take a break from reality.
I dont find it affects my life that drastically, I can still function the same way I would if I didnt just smoke, possibly better, but it does make it harder for me to concentrate on my emotions & to feel them to the extent I know I need to in order to 'get better.'
I have also partaken in the stupid act of snorting oxycocet (perks). I dont do it that often, partially because they are hard to come by, and its hard to hide. I do this because it sort of numbs me, brings me into a different, more relaxed world.
The big thing is though, is how much is too much? I dont even know if I care all that much... because part of the reason I do them, is just because I know its hurting myself, and im not a big fan of myself...
I dont know, I feel so stupid.