Those things you said about struggling to not call, email or text--I failed at this weekend. But I felt kind of good, too, because I identified my need (for communiction) and I stated it. Yes, it was probably pathetic and needy of me, but I also decided it was pathetic of me to sit and hope and feel worthless--now I can sit and feel worthless knowing that at least I expressed how I feel. I am so not good at being alone like you are doing, wanting a phone call or something to let you know you are meaningful. It hurts. I have zero advice for you on how to get over that feeling except to occupy your mind and body. Go windowshopping, get back into volunteeing, something. Only a hug to offer this time, sorry!