Thank you so much, Bizi I guess I do have lots of stress, but when I get teary and upset, BF says I'm doing it to myself- meaning, I start thinking of bad things and getting upset about things that may or may not be actually happening. At least, that's how I've tried to see it. But when he says that, it really bothers me. We did talk later about it, but he said that when I told him I'd made myself a sanctuary so I could be alone, he thought I meant I wanted him to go away.

There isn't anything I can do about the kids and going to school. Well, I mean, I love my kids and enjoy them. I TRY to be a good mom. So when things like this morning happen, I feel so guilty and bad about it. Getting up this morning wasn't so out of the realm of when I've been getting up actually. Its just that I guess I stayed up late watching tv. Not 4 a.m. or anything- about midnight.

I do that, too- go sit in the bathroom and turn on the fan to block out noise. This works at bf's place, but it occured to me to go sit in my van and that was a lot better- comfier too. The sound system is pretty good, considering. They have these expensive bubble/egg things you can buy that can have sound systems in them. I saw one in a fancy catelog once. I often wish I had one- be like being back in the womb kinda. (I was short-changed 9 weeks!)

I'm in pre-nursing, which is hard because I'm more of a music-type. Was a music major at 18. I have been mulling this over in my head, too. What have I gotten myself into??

I'm not sure about the hormone thing. I'm 36 and just got off the Mirena after 5 years- the IUD with progesterone in it. I rarely had periods with it so suddenly having normal heavy periods is a change. Even while on it, though, before going on Depakote, my PMS was horrible. in fact, that's how I got my diagnosis- thought it was PMDD, but turned out to be bipolar I. Seems my hormones are sorting themselves out, but I don't think I'm in menopause or even peri yet.

Yes I am taking my meds. I haven't changed anything.