Thanks everyone for giving a crap about me. I went to bed and cried myself to sleep. I awoke too early this morning, but at least I got some rest. I had written in my journal last night and found, this morning, that some of my alters wrote, too. That is always a good thing because they don't usually. Anyways, I do feel a little better, but I can't help but feel "what next?"

I lost my grandfather on October 28th 2007, lost my mom on Feb 5th 2008, my BF left me April 3rd 2008, I got into a car accident on April 15th (still dealing the the effects and doctors), Saturday my bedroom carpet got flooded with water due to a major storm that caused the subpump to shut off and last night I got word that my grandmother (the last of my grandparents) is now living in hospice, wearing diapers and not remembering anyone or anything and won't get out of bed.

I am still crying this morning, but I have T this afternoon. I am going to give her my journal to read so I don't have to talk.

BLAH!

Thank you again, everyone.

BJ