right - T can only tell someone if you are in serious threat of your own life or going to hurt another. I was afraid of that at first too, and T has a right to be concerned, but that concern is for YOU and your well being. If you're not suicidal or going to hurt others, than confidentiality will be held most likely. You'd have to double check that with your T as far as T talking with a consultant to find the best way to help you. Make sense?
I am also sorry you felt you had to hurt yourself. If you can stop, please do. Find other ways to feel your pain, anger, rage, numbness.... or ground yourself.
********hugs!!!*********