(trigger warning for mention of SI and ED)


My H went with me to see my T today and it was a disaster. I hated every minute of it, and there were a lot of minutes because it lasted for almost 2 1/2 hours.
Now my H is not talking to me and I want to cancel my appointment with T on Wednesday.

I starved all day, and when I finally ate something I purged.

I am fighting strong impulses to SI, which I haven't done in 2 weeks.



I just want this day to be over.....to pop my seroquel and settle into bed and sleep sleep sleep.........I hate that the sun is shining and that it is a beautiful fall day........I hate that I have to make dinner and give my kids baths and help them with their homework. I just can't cope anymore - what do you do when you just can't do it one minute longer?

Forgive my whining and venting here.....didn't know whether to put this in psychotherapy, eating disorder, SI, or depression forum.

sorry for posting this.......I know everyone has their struggles.....sometimes it just feels good to vent.

ktgirl