Oh Molly! I am soo soo sorry. I feel your pain so so much. It feels like the world is going to end--and for you, a part of your world as you knew it is over, but a new chapter is beginning. He loves you, honey. He may need to find out within him just what that means. It is usually something different for men than it is for women, but it is love. It may mean he will find his way back to you, you just don't know yet what is to come. Allow yourself to grieve--it's ok. It hurts and you are allowed to cry. But please believe it isn't due to any flaw in you. You aren't bad, worthless or anything else like that. I'm so sorry you are hurting so bad. ((((((((((((((molly)))))))))) I'll sit with you as long as you'd like.