I am a recovering addict and I think that plays a big part in the direction my relationship is going.

at the start of me cleaning up my act, I started to notice something I had not in a long time, and that was feelings.

I don't like feelings, and I'm struggling. I don't like feelings because... they make me feel like a bad person.

since I have quit heroin, I have noticed a change in me which seems for the worst... just about everything my girlfriend says or does, I lash out and snap about it, if it deserves a cocky remark, I go way overboard and if its a simple question thats "no harm done" I'm still an arrogant jerk. I wish it would stop, I love her to death but my actions definitely do not show that... I'm not sure what to do and I need help.

besides my relationship with her, my relationship with others and myself is just the same. life overall is rocky as ever. I have had substantial clean time in the past and in previous endeavors to control my addiction and work on myself, I have never had this problem. .. I need some advice, I'm not sure if I have enough info here or not, any questions or comment is greatly appreciated.