Dance - those are great suggestions, and good job with your recovery.
It sounds like you are doing really well. Good for you.

[quote=xylia;833663] I'm stuck in this place right now. I need to control something, and I don't feel right without that control. [quote]

Xylia,
I don't have a great answer for you, but I wanted you to know you are not alone. I am struggling right now too.
It sounds like you have some great insights into why you are using these behaviors - to 'control something'.
It might help to explore this a little more.....maybe with a counselor like Dance suggested?
hang in there and keep trying....

ktgirl