Hey, I have a little different issues, much the same though. I actually have borderline personality disorder with features of bi-polar type 2, I can never really find much support for the borderline so i venture into the bi-polar fields. I was diagnosed with this about 3 years ago, this was when the depression part really kicked in, unfortunitly still hasnt changed much. I just havent been happy with life and was wondering what everyone does to help them... i can do some cheap thrills but at the end of the day still hate life, its too boring and depressing, to live in a world with no compassion. I'm at my wits end, If i wasn't the only child im sure i would of commited suicide by now, but the only thing that makes me stay is that i am the only child and i feel bad leaving my parents alone with no family. I just wish i could be happy, yes theres times i get over happy (been in trouble with cops from it) but again in the end its just.. the same, i really have a hard time explaining but i hope someone understands and can give advice, thanks.