I'm so sad and feel so hurt and alone right now. My husband of 17 years has cheated on me on more than one occasion. He is in the military and the last time he cheated was almost a year ago when he was in Iraq. And the other woman was 3 years older than our oldest daughter!! I just don't know that I can forgive this time. I have tried, I really have. But I can't seem to shake it. I don't look at my husband like I once did. I used to admire him so much but after all this I can't even make eye contact with him. He said after I took him back that he would do what ever it takes to make things right and we would go to counseling. We have not yet been. He always comes up with an excuse as to why he can't.We are not intiamte due to the reason that I can't seem to bring myself to do be with him. And when I do it's only to to keep himm from bothering me about it. My teenage daughters are a big problem to my being depressed. They want him out of the house because in their words they " like it better when he's not here". My son is only nine and seems to be the only one who really loves me. He has no clue as to whats going on at home as everything happens when he goes to bed. I'm tired, depressed, and very lonely.