Last night I took a kitchen knife into my bedroom
I hid it beneath my pillow, where it waited.
I sat on my bed in complete darkness
And stabbed my self hard into my leg.
I lay down and felt the blood pour down to my toes...
My mind spinning out of control.
Spinning into feelings of euphoria..
It felt amazing, it felt seductive
I fell asleep.
Today I am disgusted.
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