(((((((((((( lbilo ))))))))))))) I don't think that a counselor would tell you that you were wasting their time and if they did then they shouldn't be a counselor. I think that the fear that you are explaining is pretty common. I am sorry that you are having a hard time right now, post here as much as you need, I hope that things get better for you soon.
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