Apart from at the dr where i just tell them the last time i had intercourse as an adult...and completely block out the sexual abuse because what does it matter for a pap test if i was abused or not....even if i hadn't had sex as an adult i think id still use that excuse....

i've had the topic come up with friends in high school and i just used to say i was a virgin....but then they would all get excited about me losing it and i couldn't handle that so i made up another lie and felt even worse...i lied that i did it in high school and enjoyed it and remember feeling so disgusting and filthy...

but then it came up in my adult converstations when we were all drunk and they all started telling virgin stories and when it got to me i was so anxiety ridden and terrified i burst into tears and said when i was 7 and ran for my life....ran so far from those friends..

and the worst things was nobody but my best friend acknowldeged it....even when i apologised the next group outing...
made me feel so ashamed...

probly why i still am

so at the end of all that i agree

it is nobodies business but those who u chose to tell