Hi, I feel the same way. I tell my family and all they do is stick their head in the sand. I think you need to decide to fix this yourelf. Call your local mental health and see a therapist. They will probally put you on some meds. Oh yeah, give meds time to work, 2 to6 weeks. When you start looking back you will notice each week you feel a little better. Please get help for self! I send you a hug. Greg