The painkiller thing really doesn't work. I know, I've tried that path. You've got to do this w/the EMDR even though it's really hard&painful&w/your therapists'. If you use painkillers, it's like turning to street drugs&alcohol which you don't want to have become a problem&add to what you're already dealing with. Keep going-YOU CAN DO IT! YOU'RE TRYING, YOU'RE DOING THE WORK-that's great! Reading this thread has given me a lot of ideas about what to talk about w/my t in a few days.