welcome,
I think you are brave admiting this to us.
Yes your family would be devastated if you ended your life by suicide.
I lsot my brother 18 years ago, it changes you for ever.
Since you have a bipolar 2 diagnosis are you on meds?
They can be a life saver if on the right ones.
Learning how to treat yourself well and improve your self esteem will help you the most, this takes a long time.
keep posting venting working on yourself, you are worth it!
bizi